Life of New Beginnings & wonder
Over the past year I have been coming to own and embrace my nature of renewal and change. When I reflect back on my life, one constant remains, that is my love of growth and change.
My relentless pursuit of it. Some live a life fearful of change and transitions, I, seem to have been on a cycle of pursuing it.
Whether through my curiosity and love of learning, driven by my restless nature of seeking deeper truths or researching the keys that will unleash potential in people to flow into their next layer of becoming. Practically, this has looked like lots of changes of careers, roles in careers, relationships, projects, studies, you name it!
I've loved heading off into many adventures, sometimes unaware of where they would lead me. Often, this has presented great gifts and great challenges for me. In particular when it feels like to others I am swiftly dancing from here to there.
I know at times others must perceive me as aloof, cold, or confused as to the ease by which I transition. Some have shared they feel left behind. For many years I have thought this to be both a blessing and curse. A blessing that on an innate and natural way with ease I embrace the impermanent nature of life itself and yet a curse in that it results often in a deep seated sense of loneliness, and most often mis-understandings in relationships.
Owning a deeper truth that I am not just a part of the larger scheme, tapestry of life, but that I am that. How could I ever be alone?
Suffering for me has dug its nails in when I try and dismiss this nature of mine. When I've tried to conform with what others want and need me to be in their drama of life, I've often found myself in all too familiar soul sucking experiences. Experiences in which I am by no means living up to my fullest potential.
Today, I find myself at another crossroads. Truth is I have been here for quite some time. I have tried so many different things to distract myself from its call. I can no longer dismiss its knocking at the door of my awareness. I step back, lift up, and choose to honour the nature of my nature that has come here to live in flow with a life honouring of new beginnings. For the mere joy of it. Rather then the drive to fix or course correct anything.
I wonder what I will discover NOW as I relax into this truth?
Contextually, life here in the physical realm is in pain. Collectively, we're caught in many archetypal twists and turns that are demanding aNEW to emerge. I wander & wonder what will it take for us (for me:) to release the grip of a structure of reality that no longer supports life for all?
I wonder what 2018 will bring for us all, as we round the corner into a year of great uncertainty?
Resistance is futile. What I have discovered for myself is, resistance of my true nature, resistance of what is, resistance of my intuition and guidance feeds suffering.
To resist one's nature, however absurd or out of the norm it might appear to another, forms deep roots of suffering.
As you prepare to step into your New Beginning this year, I invite you to ponder,
-what wisdom you will harvest from 2017 and what will you release?
Making space for the new is essential. I trust you know what needs harvesting and what needs to be released.
From the bottom and depths of my heart and soul....
I wish everyone a blessed transition into 2018.
May it be the year of coming to fully know & honour our nature. From here, may we release what has held us back from fully stepping out and up into the world with our gifts in our chosen life, leadership and service.I am deeply grateful to all who have walked with me on my sojourn of becoming and I look forward to a rich and delicious 2018, filled with new kindred spirits, in service, well, together!
In closing, I want to share with you one of my most favourite poems for times of transitions.
May you drink in its beautiful invitation in whatever way you choose to shepard in your New Year!
For a New Beginning by John O'Donohue
In out-of-the-way places of the heart,
Where your thoughts never think to wander,
This beginning has been quietly forming,
Waiting until you were ready to emerge.
For a long time it has watched your desire,
Feeling the emptiness growing inside you,
Noticing how you willed yourself on,
Still unable to leave what you had outgrown.
It watched you play with the seduction of safety
And the gray promises that sameness whispered,
Heard the waves of turmoil rise and relent,
Wondered would you always live like this.
Then the delight, when your courage kindled,
And out you stepped onto new ground,
Your eyes young again with energy and dream,
A path of plenitude opening before you.
Though your destination is not yet clear
You can trust the promise of this opening;
Unfurl yourself into the grace of beginning
That is at one with your life's desire.
Awaken your spirit to adventure;
Hold nothing back, learn to find ease in risk;
Soon you will be home in a new rhythm,
For your soul senses the world that awaits you.
- from To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings, by John O'Donohue